24 January 2003 - 6:25 pm
returning to Eventuality.

updating, from the quad. it's been awhile since i've been down in here, and i kinda knew that i wouldn't be comfortable in here again until i was thoroughly comfortable and content with myself.

which is odd, come to think of it - it's like a quiet calm that slipped over me while i talked to matt on the phone today. i began the conversation with a "got a minute?" that turned into a three hour talk. which did wonders for my constitution.

and so, for right now, i'm content. i just thought i'd mention. and claudia IMed me this morning. she .. floored me with this entry and ... in frank honesty.

i can't believe that this is how i feel right now. i have a ladder of ideas and thoughts that i need to fix, and that i need to accomplish. as before, there is an Eventuality that i owe to myself to reach, a Goal that i know i need to find. it's wild, like i said to matt, to know that there's a place for me already.

which i suppose i should have accepted before.

i'm going to go now. and maybe update again later.

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