27 January 2003 - 1:27 am
partial list of happiness.

so the superbowl turned out to be the super bowel. tampa bay won. even though my seeming "sympathies" were more towards the raiders than anything. not that i actually cared overmuch about the game, but it was fun to watch. right now i'm just waiting for laundry so that i can eventually go to sleep. class in the morning, but not until noon-thirty.

been spending a lot of time on my own recently, and i don't mind it so much, because i know there'll eventually be a time with more people later on. although i find it somewhat disenchanting that i have less to say in this journal when i'm not cataclysmically angry or sad ... i'm going to try to keep it up even when i'm not.

i'm going to make myself go to the auditions for "eggs over eric" tomorrow night at portland stage company. they're looking for two men, ages 20 - 28. i'll give it a shot. even though i'm really rather nervous about the whole thing and i don't know what the show is even about, i'd like to try to do something other than a vague "oleanna" some time this spring - i need to find a "john" now. i have my "carol" .. etc. amy and i are planning on doing a david ives/christopher durang festival this spring too, in the second blackbox slot. it'll be a great time had by all, and i plan on proposing for the fall SPA slot. i will direct on the mainstage before i leave this university.

i'd like to learn to play guitar.

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coke with ice in a glass. coming home to a warm room when it's been cold outside. spring. espionage movies. enormous books, preferably over a thousand pages. a comfortable night with a few friends. accomplishing something. piano and strings. doodling. getting out of drama lit class. my grandmother. julia stiles' voice. memories of relaxing in casey's old room, the triple, with the christmas lights and the warmth. mountain dew.

this list has been a long time in coming. but i suppose i'll continue adding on to it - and it's a good thing to just keep in your head as opposed to an actual written down list. because if you re-write something because you forgot that you already had, this way it seems new and even better than before.

and yes, i am a walking hallmark card. but i'm allowed to be - it's nearly 2am and i'm tired and i'm content and there's a prodigiously warm feeling inside. besides, tuesday is the beginning of ACTF at keene state, NH. for a whole week of workshops and shows and plays and ... just fun. i'm really looking forward to it, regardless of the long drive and the relative drama that's been boiling lately.

... speaking of which, i need to resolve some issues. soon. hopefully soon.

g'night.

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